Sometimes, your children can surprise you, and teach you a valuable lesson. I think it's a lesson in history that children really know so much more than we do. They understand life so much better. Why is that? Is it because we have over-worked ourselves, over-thought ourselves, or is it we just think too much of ourselves? Children understand the simplicity in everything, and that's enough for them. For some reason, it's just not enough for us.
Over these past 2 years and something months of being a mother, I've learned so much about myself. I realized that I am stronger than I thought. I never knew how easily I could cry, or what it took to function with only 2 hours of sleep. My heart ached when I couldn't help my sick child, and my heart sang as she took her first steps. I never knew how much I could smile while reading a book that contained only 10 words. I never knew how much hate I could harbor against people who hurt children.
She's happy when she jumps from the second step down from the staircase, and it's such a huge accomplishment for her. She claps, screams, and what's everyone to know what she has done. Yet when we make our smallest progresses, we feel like we have to do more, like that's not enough. Why is that not enough? Why aren't we happy with out littlest accomplishments?
I've learned that the day, this day, is all we have. We should be so excited for the smallest things because that's what makes the days go by easier. My daughter taught me that if you fall, stand up, or look around because someone probably wants to help you up. She taught me that if you make a mistake, laugh at yourself, tell everyone about it, and try not to do it again. My daughter taught me that if you want something, go for it, nothing is standing in your way but yourself, and youactually have control over that person.
The bottom line is, being a mother for me, has made life seem more simple, attainable, and worthwhile. My daughter, my little toddler, has been around for only 2 years and something months, yet I feel like she has gained the concept of life. In her own words, "I just want to play."
